Stepping out onto the street after the massage the world looked kind of different. Like the world was a dream and more a reflection of the inner world than the ground of reality. To some degree this perspective is still with me. My heart is still warm with the trust that appeared in our session and normally trusting does not come easy for me.

Feeling connected to the ground in this way there was just openness and acceptance to be with this adventure. I am still wondering about where my tears were coming from. Well, sexuality never came easy to me. There with you it felt beyond any past disappointment, just experiencing the sensations of my body. Even the expectation of having an orgasm was disappearing in the now. What shines up was the moment when you touched my tearful cheek. Even remembering it the tears just come.

Actually I am a little bit puzzled by how much I still feel your presence now. Do you know what the Sufis describe as the “Beloved”? It is an ecstatic experience of Beingness or God, maybe in a sense similar to the universal love we have been talking about. For me it feels like an uncaused happiness, which is not bound to the conditions of the world. It is also a perspective of unity. That is what I felt in the massage with you – becoming one in truth. The sense of a separate identity seems to fade in the experience, just the joy of beingness connected to beingness remains. Also in this perspective it is not personal and everything turns into the Beloved. So, you are the Beloved, too. 😊

The soul takes on a glow, the heart feels a deep gratitude. I guess as an expression of this in the last days an image came to me, where I was kissing your feet. In some sense all this feels almost too good to be true and it probably won't last like that. I guess it is kind of hard for me to believe it could be more real than experiencing life from a perspective of deficiency.

Thank you for being with me!

Frank

Für mich war es in der vergangenen Woche das erste Mal,
dass ich mir eine Tantra Massage gegönnt habe. Natürlich war ich ein wenig nervös und es ist sicherlich nicht immer einfach gleich beim ersten Mal richtig abzuschalten und an nichts anderes zu denken.
Gleich nach dem herzlichen und lockeren Empfang durch Madlen hatte ich das Gefühl hier richtig aufgehoben zu sein.
Madlen einfach mit zärtlichen Händen und mit einem schönen sowie weichen Körper zum Massieren hat mir gleich das Gefühl gegeben hier richtig angekommen zu sein. Einfach ein Traumerlebnis.Für mich war es ganz bestimmt nicht das letzte Mal.Weiter so liebes Ananda Team.
Lg an Madlen